The woes of today

So today I found out the boy I like was left alone from his friends "to work his magic" on Saturday night. A few days ago I told myself I would just forget about him, but this just hurt. It's like stabbing my heart and then wringing it out to dry. I wouldn't say that I loved him, but using the heart is a good metaphor. What's makes this process worse is that he kind of led me on. He is such a sweetheart and a gentleman that anyone could have been fooled by his acts towards me. One time he hugged me for a long time and didn't let go. Now to me it shows that he was interested, but noooo, apparently he's not. Since this has happened I have officially declared that the rest of today will be my moping day. I will go home and watch f-r-i-e-n-d-s while eating delicious ice cream. Mmmmmm. *licking my lips* I will get over this because as my friend told me today, "Your dream boat is looking for you! There totally is some hunk out there! I bet he dances better than --- too!" Which I hope that time is soon.

"The Sunflower"

As I've been reading this book, The Sunflower I've really been contemplating my life right now. In the book the two main characters are in Peru volunteering and going on many adventures. They just caught and held a few crocodiles and have to deal with jaguars and pumas. (never run away from them. they'll chase. just back off slowly maintaining dominate eye contact) This girl is so brave to get away from regular life and live for two weeks in the wilderness as many Amazon tribes do. I'm proud of her, but I just get scared because I don't think I would be able to survive if it were me in her place. I've considered doing volunteer work in Croatia for bears to keep them alive. But now that I have read this story about doing service in a foreign country, I don't think I would be okay. I would panic about every little thing, especially if it's possible to die. But I recommend you all to read it. It's a good book.

Life atWork

So I was planning on studying today at work, but I got distracted with playing with Super Text Twist (by the way, best game in the world :) I got my roommates hooked on it). And when I was ready to get down to business, the clock said it was 3:42! I get out of work at 4:15. So pretty much I had half an hour to study for geology, thhbbppptt. I've been reading The Sunflower and Sense and Sensibility. They're both good and once I finish I can try to study for classes as the semester ends.